Enough about Death Note. I am feeling really bummed right now. I don't wish talk to any of my parents. It all happened during lunch. Don't read the next portion. I just trying to find a way to vent my anger.

You see, yesterday, I mentioned that we went to take neo prints as a family. I'm telling you now, that I am not going to do anything together with them anymore. My mother wanted a family picture with the 4 of us together, but I did not choose that one cause it didn't look nice. She started telling and spluttering about what a horrible job I had done, and that it was a waste blah blah. Do you seriously think that I will sit down there and take in all the insults. I really wished I was in school and not at home at the moment. I told my mother to stop mentioning that and she went right on, using this accusing tone saying that she had expected something better. You know what, I am hurt. REALLY. So I shut up and told her in her face. The picture was not nice. Then she added " How was I supposed to know. You did not say anything about that. And you did not even explain the instructions properly." The fact is that I explained 6 times but they were not listening. Now it has become totally my fault. So I told her: " Do you think I would choose something that is not nice?" My mother had nothing else to say, so she just changed the topic and acted like nothing had happened.

I feel terrible. How can she say something so hurtful and just leave it like nothing has happened. To me. parents who cannot even say the word sorry to their kids when they have done something wrong, or hurtful and worst than scums! And I mean it So far, out of the 16 times she has hurt me, never once did she say sorry. And she knew she was wrong. I just kept quiet. I'm fed up. By then, tears were already streaming down my face. My mother could still act like nothing in the world had happened. I decided to go to school myself. The sooner I could leave the house for school, I don't care what time my shift was, the better. I don't want to say anything stupid and get myself into trouble again. Worst still, my dad without even understanding what had happened, just flared up on me.

Bad timing, when I was leaving the house, my parents decided to tag along to send me. When I walked off without them, they pulled me back. To someone who has been taking public transport to school, a lift by their parents would be bliss. But then, I would rather take public transport than to sit with them in the car. I have decided that I'm not going to talk to them. This is the last draw.

I shall talk about CCAO ( CCA Orientation). Thinking of what happened before only makes me angrier. I guess I just need to calm down. I am Sec 2 next year. This is for the Sec 1 in 2008 and practically everyone is involve other than the slackers (you know who I'm talking about yourself) I have never spokena about the same thing so many times. Its like after a few rounds, I have practically memorised this 'speech' that I make to every cluster that come by and another speech reserved for parents. Neither have I spoken to so many parents all at once at the same time. I was thinking: this could very well be some oral practice. --"

I don't know but seeing all the next year sec 1s brings back many precious memories for me. I am almost feeling the same excitement that I felt when I entered the school. And it sure is nostalgic. We (Jacyln, Murnirah and myself) met the new IT HOD (apparently a guy). He was really nice. He talked to us and even helped us to speak to a few parents. And we met out new teacher in-charge, Doctor Ng ( I think). Jacyln has this wonder flair at manga drawing, so pro.

While I'm free, I talked to Lydia about the latest version of the Ouran High School Host Club's new chapter. And we laughed and had fun. that really made my mood better. Students came and students go. I noticed something weird about the Sec 1s this year, they didn't really like stickers the ones given out during CCAO on the different CCA. Even the Prefects had more stickers than them.

I met many people who I long time never see like: Jia Le, Jody, Zhi Tian, Edith, Wei Zhen, Vicky, Vicky`107, Murnira, Nazihah, Sandra and so on. :D I reached RGS at 1.05pm. I left the place at 5pm. Thats about 4 hours there. I drank bubble tea with Karen and had a long anime-filled chat with Karen on the way home. But all I was thinking really was how to survive it at home...

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Elaine